Soooo....it's been a minute. 8 months. Life happens. Life happened. I said upon the start of this blog that everyday would not be a good day. Everyday won't be pretty....inspirational...motivational....but transparent. In short,
What brought me back today was my affirmation. Let me tell you what it said...
"I am living in my full potential."
When I read today's affirmation I thought, Am I? And I have to tell you, I'm not. The moment I stopped to think about where I am in life versus where I wanna be in life, I realized I'm not even close. Not because of procrastination, not because I can't, but because I haven't taken the time I need to get there. It's so easy to be inundated with other people's lives that I in turn neglect mine.
My goals are lacking. My task list is growing. My sense of love is....limited. I can't tell you the last time I took a trip without worrying about home....that I celebrated a birthday with friends....My life has been one big obstacle after the next (in my mind)....until today. Not saying I haven't had obstacles. I have. They all just weren't as big as they appeared.
Funny thing....I found out today, it's not just me. I'm not the only one faking the funk, going with the flow. My friends with husbands...boyfriends....fiancée's yep them too. Of course their masks aren't as bold as mine. It's easier for them to put on a happy front because it's expected...or they can't show people that it's possible to be unhappy and attached. WE ALL dread judgment and it's been the demise of our true happiness.
Change has to happen. It has to be intentional. It has to reflect the true versions of ourselves based on our own expectations of self. Otherwise it's just a substitution of efforts. It doesn't matter how many times we try to make this happen, it won't count until we do it right. Consistently reminding ourselves that we DESERVE to live and not simply EXIST. Life is....so short. Don't waste it being unhappy. Clear the clutter....you are definitely NOT alone.
