Transitions in Motion....

 

As you can see, the name of my blog has changed.  One morning, shortly after my surgery, I was laying in bed thinking about my logo and cover for my journal.  After a year of work, my journal is finally complete and basically ready to be published.  I've been toggling back and forth with how I would reach both males and females because feelings aren't gender based.  So....I decided to go back and read my journal one last time in an effort to come up with an idea.  When I got to my third entry, I realized my journal mimicked the many journals already out there. And.... more importantly it wouldn't reach the people who really needed it.   People like me.  Single parents.  Male or female that are struggling with everyday life.  I guess you already know my next words....my journal is being rewritten.  But...it's coming.  

2022 was one of the worst and best seasons of my life.  Career wise I've excelled and learned so much.  However my personal life was so freaking mentally draining until at one point, I literally wanted to disappear.  If you looked at me from the outside, you would think I was one of the happiest, focused, motivational people you ever seen.  But if you followed me home....whewww. 

So many people like me hold it together for appearances....public, family and work. We put on such a façade that no one in a million years would even fathom the thought of us struggling mentally.  And we want it that way.  We WANT normalcy; even if it's in small amounts.  We stay busy, day in and day out to ensure the clutter in our minds never become a reality.  Not for one second.  

People always talk about the tenacity of single parents without no real knowledge of the true struggles we encounter.  Yes. They see the financial struggles.  They see the difficult kid or kids.  They see the lack of personal intimacy.  In the same instance, they don't see the sleepless nights trying to figure out the next day. They don't see the tears and hear the questions we're asking God because the same prayers that we've prayed are being answered ten fold to others around us.  

But....we are continually moving forward.  Transition after transition.  Working, crying, praying.... YES. We are praying.  If I could count the number of times people said to me, Shun you have to pray and do the right things before God will acknowledge your requests. Stop.  If you are that person that says that to a single parent, PLEASE take a seat! When I tell you, you can do EVERYTHING that you can the right way and STILL struggle....trust, it happens.  We don't need or want you tryna tell us, what we're doing wrong because at the end of the day, you're probably struggling with just as much.  ~She Stings