YOU ARE ALLL THAT

   

This is your Wednesday morning reminder that you ARE all that. Stop debating when people tell you that you aren’t all that! Honeyyyy! You are! You wake up every morning with the purpose of winning and despite the ghetto foolishness the world has been giving you, you are still standing. You are intentional about your hustle….you are focused and transparent… You will not show up for not one single con- consistently inconsistent, consistently conniving or consistently co signing person!  You will stop calling these ppl co workers bc co means with… or in partnership… and if these ppl are working against you, they are not applicable. This is your reminder that if everything begins with you, love you enough to choose you and your peace today… even if it means only speaking about work. We making today all about us- and being unapologetic about it! Now go….be great! 

SheStings Relatable Moments

  

The more I pour into this blog, the more I learn about myself.  This blog forces me to hold myself accountable bc once it’s written, the world will know. I speak on the importance of self transparency and in these moments of blogging I find myself wanting to hold back…wanting to mask my dislike of my current self… and present a strong front. That isn’t transparency. 

So here I am today.  Blogging about my daily morning affirmation.  It starts like this:

I acknowledge God in all my ways. I will seek Him first in all things.  (I’ve become balanced in this.  However, I sometimes veer away after getting an answer I didn’t want- I’m not there yet. But I will be) 

I embrace the journey he has for me and all that it entails. (Whewwww….yep. This is the line. I struggle with some parts of the journey. I feel like some parts of this Season is ghetto lol Like how can I wholeheartedly embrace a journey that leaves me drained and questioning who I am?) 

I have no idea what next steps are. I have no idea of what I should or shouldn’t be doing.  All I can do in THIS moment… is continue to hold myself accountable… continue to pray for discernment….continue to allow myself to grow because the rest, is outta my control. 

 

Monday thoughts

 

Have you ever made a promise to yourself that no matter what you would make an effort to be true to yourself…That your peace was more important than someone else’s happiness….  Sigh. But then you gradually accept things as a form of compromise…. You find yourself questioning why you are feeling the way you’re feeling… 

That’s me currently. I feel like I’m falling back into my old self. The self that was so focused on others, I lost me.  Soooooo …. It’s time to reset.  It’s time to sit and revisit ME.  I don’t know if you have ever encountered this or not… and I’m hoping not…lol But if u are, don’t be afraid to choose u.  

Believe in you

This morning I was in my way to work and was stopped by a train. The train was basically at a standstill and if I didn’t go another way, I’d likely be late. I maneuvered around the waiting traffic back onto the busy street basically following the flow because I DIDN’T have any knowledge of the roads in that area.  

Even with the GPS I had to redirect due to one ways or road closures.  I had to use my own logic based on my surroundings to hopefully make to work on time.  

Isn’t life that way?!  We all have goals and ambitions. We make the plans. We put in the work.  But sometimes, things just don’t go the way we want. We have to be prepared at ALL TIMES for the unexpected. If we’re honest with ourselves, things never come out exactly as we plan. Change…. no matter how small, happens.  Trust the process.  And most importantly…  Believe in you.

Growth.

  

 Last year was one of the best and worse years of my life in terms of growth.  I made a conscious decision that I was over having to relearn life lessons simply because I refused to change. If I had to describe me… in those moments… my descriptions would have probably ranged from broken to simply unrealistic. 

So. I took the plunge and started my journey to transparency.  No longer was I the Holly Blue butterfly… gorgeous just as a glance…. I was now Sylphina - clear and focused.  This was NOT an easy task!  Too many days I cried.  Too many days I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror.  Looking back now I can say, I totally lost me to the world.  

But here’s what I learned: 

1… I couldn’t expect ppl to show up for me and I wasn’t showing up for myself… 

2.  That  ppl don’t owe u Grace just bc u extend it to them… 

3. U won’t grow until ur open to growing…. 

We gotta stop thinking growth is glowing up. Growth can be ugly. It can be painful. But at the end of the day, it’s totally worth it. YOU are worth it. 

Think of each day as an opportunity to start fresh. To grow in ways you ever imagined … take the baby steps to be a better you.  This time on purpose.