Implied Perception should NEVER be part of Your Reality

Perception shouldn't be a part of your reality.   Implied perception should NEVER be a part of your reality. I was in the shower this morning having a whole conversation with myself on how I wanted to present this today.... lol It's crazy because typically I always shoot from the hip when it comes to my #relatablemoments because I want them to be genuine.  And it was.  IS.  

I just wanted people to REALLY understand what I was saying and not confuse it with the norm...  I'm NOT saying, "your perception (OF ME) isn't my reality." I'm saying, "your PRESENTED perception (OF YOU) isn't reality (FOR ME). 

At one time, I was that girl.  I looked at the women around me and wondered why my life couldn't mirror theirs.  They had it all...happy marriages/relationships, nice clothes, nice cars, living in a house and working their dream jobs.  And me?  I couldn't get it right in any relationship, a wasn't a slouch butttt ehhhh  when was the last time I shopped (lol), hadn't purchased a car in years and I lived in an apartment. Ughh..... when was my favor coming? It left me constantly feeling empty....low....insignificant.

But little did I know that even though I knew their story, I didn't know their faith; I didn't know their struggles. I was operating solely on the the things that were PRESENTED to me.  I made that enough reason to change MY outlook on ME.   So little by little, I made the changes I felt like I needed to experience a smidget of who they were.  

The thing is....none of it felt real.  Something was always missing.  And for years I struggled with figuring out just what that was.  It wasn't until I started therapy that I realized the problem was I wasn't trying to better ME. I was creating a mirror image of someone else and that WASN'T me.  

So change began.  It was frustrating and discouraging because... in the process of being them, I lost me. Losing yourself is one of THE MOST hardest hits you will ever feel in life.  I cried, journaled and prayed excessively during this time ... I poured my heart unto God because I knew, without a doubt that I couldn't do it alone.  

Now look at me...sharing my story with you.  Reminding you that "Implied Perception should NEVER be part of Your Reality." Time changes all things WITH EFFORT. 

Alright... I held yall long enough. lol

.....Extend Some Grace. Share some Love.  And Let's A.C.E. (Affirm, Change and Elevate) 2024!

~S.He Stingss